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    2/27/2009

    我要去西藏

     
    看了朋友的blog - "坐着火车去拉萨" ... 哇塞, 那种要去西藏的冲动又来了, 刚开通火车的时候就想去了可是火车太久了我怕会活活闷死在火车上就没有去,现在飞机通航了, 太好了! 是不是该去西藏了呢? 朋友说我的身体恐怕不行,什么高原反应啊这个那个的..不要紧, 我相信那里的喇嘛们会保佑我的哈! 哈哈rubbish believer ...
     
    朋友们说如果一起去西藏该是多么的有意思啊? 我可以想象一群志同道合的"鸭子"们凑合在一起能是怎么样一番世界大战即将到来的景象啊! 什么经济危机..什么金融风暴... 算了吧,我们就是一群城市小市民哈 ... 嗷嗷小资那波的了! 爱谁谁吧... 生活还是要过的.. 日子还是要继续的... life continues .. life moves on ... 只把今天过好哈 ...
     
    说点正经的我最亲爱的朋友们哈... 想要一起去西藏的赶紧报名吧,我有朋友在旅行社能组织团哈, 挺好的童叟无欺的哈! 说好了这次不是奢侈豪华团哈我们要backpacker那种哈... 体验一下西藏的反动份子们不行我们也去做个斗争啊... 为国争光!!! 不行了.. 越说我就越激动了 ... 不去不行了!!!! 存钱哈妞们.. 从今天开始存钱哈.. 哦,谁在西藏有亲戚啊? 那连住的地方也省了哈 啊哈哈 ... 对了,自己带帐篷吧他们不都是那么住在大草原上的吗? 我要去买件冲锋衣哈.. 全力备战了! 开始行动...
     
    Tibet Tibet .. Tibet ... Tibet ... Lama Lama Lama .... we are coming!!!!! 和谐,我要开始跑步锻炼了... 增大肺活量不能有去无回吧! 啊哈哈哈 ...
     
    p.s: 已经有孩子的和即将有孩子的姐妹们不带哈! 我们这次是野外生存... 你们不适合哈! 请等下次豪华团吧...
     
    Mysterious Tibet:
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    2/22/2009

    Bookworm

     
    总算是有时间出门了今天,昨天帮朋友做网页我的天啊我都要烂掉了在家里... 足足在电脑面前坐了N个小时... 不懂!
     
    Kimberly介绍了一个英文书吧给我叫Bookworm哈....她说可以买一英文书的,我就来试试了. 这个地方太难着了,司机找了好多圈都找不到最后放弃了半路让我下车因为没有戏哈. 好不容易给书店打了电话才知道怎么走可是其实还要找好久呢..我就一路打听啊.. 我还以为那个纹路的大爷要把我给卖了呢... 不和谐哈.
     
    氛围挺好的这里..都是老外也没有个中国人大家都自己干着自己的事情.. 每个人都显得很enjoy的样子.. 蛮像个图书馆的哈..像我这么爱读书的人还真不少呢( 脸红了) 哈哈... 就是客气一下哈别当真啊姐妹们! 知道我的人都应该明白我说的是假的哈...可是这里真的很小资啊.. 看着书.. 上着网.. 喝着咖啡... 时不时的还跟朋友聊个天..比如说现在我的妞Cynthia就在网上跟我聊呢..我们俩突然见就有个想法以后我们俩合伙也开个这样的小店... 叫... ummm .. errrr ... 书痴吧... 真好.. 我们俩有好多梦想呢.. 一开始想要开个面馆 .. 现在是书吧.. 过一阵子可能还开个银行什么的也说不定哈.. 女人啊! 哈哈...
     
    不说了.. 看书了哈.. 忙碌的女人啊! 我讨厌我旁边的那个日本男人! 妈的..一直在讲日本... 死样!!!
    2/21/2009

    Forever and For always - By Rachel

     
    2/19/2009

    Perhaps . Love

     
    刚刚才能喘口气, 终于小完成了一下今天的工作任务, Phew .... tired now!
     
    最近girlfriends有些emotional,我也是! 听着她们的故事我竟然也会跟着哭跟着笑. 昨天晚上看了表妹的blog, 自己流泪了... 她说:" 沉默的时候离自己的灵魂最近... " 听起来太无奈了...可是不知道能说些什么. 活着,总有无奈的时候而且随着年龄的增长,这种无奈会越来越多因为我们都开始慢慢认识到了对这个世界来说,我们是多么的TINY... 什么也不能改变只有随波逐流...这个不是消极只是一个不争的事实!无论你在哪里, 什么颜色的皮肤国籍 ... 一样的!不要沉默太久了, 折腾折腾吧... 我们都会死很久的.. 那个时候就真的只有灵魂了! 表妹还算坚强...
     
    昨天晚上跟Esther讲话...嘟嘟一岁了..长大了可是她却越来越不快乐... 越来越LOST了... 还清晰的记得我们在澳洲一起的日子,她总是有好多的事情在心里... 我们有缘分所以她认我做"家姐" .... 83年的小屁孩竟然孩子都1岁了... 小妹,辛苦了! 这些年你辛苦了我知道, 听你跟我说的故事我好心疼... 能不能对自己好点呢? 再好点.... 能不能放下然后学会独立... 不要靠任何人的活着,没有人规定女人必须走在男人的后面... what right does he have to take all your courage away? 你说你都不知道什么是爱了... 当你听着Jason的" dreaming with a broken heart" 你哭了... 你知道心里还有爱 ... 我也哭了... 我觉得你心里好苦啊... 牺牲这么多到底值不值得只有你知道...别人都说朋友劝和不劝分的可是我不这么看,如果不快乐, 走吧.. 寻找自己的那份快乐..你才多大啊就要承受那么多.. 你怕嘟嘟不能原谅你是吗? 如果她有一天知道.stay会带给你更多的unhappiness,她会告诉你选择离开! 不知道, I live in my own way ... the way I feel .... 如果连自己都找不到了还能找到幸福吗? 加油... 4月份我等你!
     
    跟Herny Ong谈话总是那么让我快活..无论讨论什么无论话题本身有多么的无聊... 他总是能让我laugh aloud ... 终于heard the laugher了... 真好! 他更像自己的好朋友.... who always guides me along the way ... who teachs me what the true life is ... who makes me see things clear and face reality... Boss, all my respect for you. I am so glad and blessed that I have met you in life ....
     
    姐妹Cynthia终于如期的回到了上海.... 哈哈 我心里平衡了哈妞. 我们都是在外飘着的了哈... 不过没有关系啦... 家里好可是家里让我们变的胆小了... stay connected to the world ... 我和你都不需要一个遮风挡雨的地方,我们需要的是一个更广阔的天空哈! 等我去看你... 我们下苏杭哈! 嘻嘻 ... 你比我更独立其实, 因为你学会了享受寂寞!
     
    真庆幸office还有死党Sandy和Tina哈... Tina早上跟我说: " 我天天来的那么早陪你,你怎么也不谢谢我啊" ... 啊? 妞.我以为你要改邪归正了呢原来是为了陪我啊? 我太感动了哈! 只能说谢谢... 只能告诉你我会很努力的! Sandy还是天天过着小资不能再小资的生活了, 什么买个巴黎世家的包包啊... 什么L.V的最新款啊要去哪里买啊... 什么哪儿化妆品效果好... 我仿佛能imagine她的样子.. 瞅着一柜子的名牌正品包包天天偷笑... 神啊! 我天天跟着这样的姐妹我还能学好了吗? 我想要走上正途了啊...不要再拖我也下水了哈! 她的小资样子太逗了.. 买了还不背就让我更不能理解了.. 她说:  "不能背, 经济危机我还能卖几个包养活我自己呢... " 这孩子,脑子完全坏掉了! 是不是被那个秃头折磨的啊? 我靠, 那个秃头天天在我们面前说英文... 这份英文连印度人都听不懂! 他不停的repeat着因为听着的人完全不懂... 可能说这种曲里拐弯的英文说习惯了连说中文都那么拐 ... 一边讲着电话一边摸着他的那大秃脑门... 那份enjoy啊就别提了! 你们知道吗? 我们想死的心都有了! 今天更神了... Sandy突然ping我忍无可忍的说: Rach, 坐在他旁边太受刺激了... 我要撞墙了... 秃头要去印度出差说要在中国换卢比..还很慌张的对着电话说: 赶快去换卢比啊..不然我们去印度怎么办啊? 快去问银行啊..大牌价钱天天变呢... Sandy"哭"着说 : 哪一个银行那么傻还持有卢比啊?? 太受刺激了!!!! 我笑得终于崩溃了.. 终于不能忍了..我大声的说: 其实印度收美金的.. 而且个个机场都能换钱啊秃头哥哥! .....我准备写信给HR了, 我靠.. 天天听这份英文我都不会讲英文了!  嘿嘿 ... 我们到现在也不知道他是啥role啊... 装B分子, 迟早要完蛋!
     
    Kimberly介绍了一家叫Bookwarm的外文书店... 正好要finish手里的这本书了,这个周末去找找... 再买几本回来.... 哦.. 今天有件很让我开心的事情 嘿嘿... 所以现在心情指数: 晴朗, 阴转晴了.... 其实人只要有梦想... 有追求... 有决心.... 有will power... 一切都不难而且每天都很充实... 我知道的! 好, AZA AZA fighting!!!
     
    Actually, love is all around! Turn around, there you are, smiling at me to say: 只要用力呼吸,就会看见奇迹! ... 我一直相信!
     

     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    2/17/2009

    Unspoken Words

     

    The unspoken words in life are usually not meant to be said out loud anyways. Each of us carries around thoughts, ideas or longings that we don't want to share with our spouses and sometimes saying everything or talking too much just causes pain unnecessarily.

    Everything has changed. Traditions are not as strong. People are approaching life in…well…loosey-goosey fashion. “Relax, baby, don't want to get married? Then don't.”

    Ending a relationship is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream." "We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...sacrifice.""Often times we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesnt mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.""Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them.""Deep in my heart, I'm suffering, knowing that I've lost you. On the outside, I'm living, pretending that I've forgotten you.""A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain.

    Life has a way of taking from us. We can give to it until we bleed, and yet it still wants more. Always. Thus, life also has a way of taking away from our relationships and the people in our life that are of the highest value to us. Sometimes it's necessary to just step back, re-evaluate how things are, and renew your commitments and your statements of faith and mission to people. The most important person that is affected by all that life takes from you is your significant other.

    This is the time when we all need to be more connected, more valued, and more forgiving and forgiven. By taking the time to renew vows/ promises after a particularly rough year, you are sending a clear message to your partner that while you just walked through one of the most difficult stages of life together, he or she is still absolutely the person that you want in your life every single day. No matter what. You may have gone from the usual routine of love, honor, and respect, to having the sudden urge to pour your heart out over your partner, to express everything from how you feel first thing in the morning when there they are right in front of you being themselves with all their morning breath and gas and you still find them incredibly beautiful or desirable. These urges and thoughts are normal for those who have been together for quite awhile and especially those who have been through an awful lot over the years.

    It can seem so innocent when it starts. A few flirtatious comments, a giggle here and there, and an innocent cup of coffee or a quick “work date” all walk that fine line between being faithful and entering the highly emotionally distressing world of adultery. Pretty soon those innocent little coffee breaks together are no longer innocent, and before anyone realizes how far things are about to go, lines are crossed and lives are changed forever.
    When affairs occurs, the consequences can seem nearly as devastating as having to face an execution. No one involved will ever be quite the same again. Trust is a precious commodity, often mistakenly placed in people we believe will never abuse it. When one partner steps outside of the relationship, the trust that was once there can never be completely replaced, although it can be patched back together.

    Believe it or not, sometimes it takes an act of infidelity to make the relationship a more loving, more nurturing state. It is when a storm occurs that people put on their best survival skills. When the storm clears, that’s usually when you begin to see your spouse in a different light – you begin to discover traits that you never knew he or she had.

    Money, power, prestige, and fame can never buy the same feeling that your heart gets the first time the love of your life confesses their feelings. That wonderful little flutter in the tummy is irreplaceable, and who would want to replace it? It lets you know you’re alive.

    It is easy to hide, but not very fulfilling. Loving openly and honestly and taking the risk that someone precious and dear to us might not be in our lives one day is part of the risk of daring to live fully. A heart that hasn’t ever been broken can’t grow its brightest. A heart that hasn’t loved grows cold. And a heart that lives in fear shrinks with time.

    Love has a way of erasing the wrinkles of time. Whenever we see seniors in love, we don't see the leathery skin or the wrinkled hand or their unsteady gait. What we see is the true joy of marriage. It's an endearing picture. You know what's one of the most beautiful sights in the world, apart from the Himalayas and the Pyramids of Egypt? It's a couple in their 70s who are hugging in public, oblivious to the world, staring into each other's eyes like it was the first time.

    “Love is not measured by how many times you touch each other, but by how many times you reach for each other.”

     

    Every word is true and touching the deepest of my soul. Hold my breath, still wanna live to see another day. Dun make me change my mind ... I swear .. everything will be true ... impossible ... to find ...

     

    2/14/2009

    Happy Valentine's Day!

     
    Hope everyone is happy today ...
     
     
     
     
    2/11/2009

    Independent

     
    从来都相信每个人都要independent, 感情上,生活上, 思想上, 行为上... from every single aspect都要独立独立再独立,这样才不会受伤害! 不要太容易习惯,因为习惯会惯坏我们每一个人, 会不自觉地认为其实事情就应该是这样的, 会真的以为自己相信的一切都是真的都是理所应当的, 其实不是! 那只是习惯了而已.. 总让自己去习惯是件很悲惨的事情.. 有的人习惯被折磨了,有的人习惯了迟到了,有的人习惯了没有人疼.... 可怜! 突然觉得人真的很可怜, 因为只有人会逼迫自己去适应和习惯周围所有的一切no matter how ... 而我,也是其中的一个... 所以要再努力一点做回自己 ..真正的自己! 既然已经注定逃不过这辈子要做个"俗人", 那么就让我做个洒脱点的"俗人"行吗?
     
    好朋友今天不是很开心, 为了些本不应烦恼的事情 ...妞,想通了就好了! 希望你真正听进去我的话了, 人啊..自寻烦恼才是乐趣吧! 努力哈..找些其他的事情更有意义的事情烦烦吧...你应该有更多的梦想的, 别让乌云遮住了整个太阳! 当你错过月亮的时候不要哭,不然你可能也会错过流星! 我一直对自己说的2句话: 只要用力呼吸就能看到奇迹!!! 不要人生多么完美,只要它会更精彩!!!!  
     
    加油哈.. 妞!
     
    2/9/2009

    Happy Lantern Festival

     
    新年最后一天了... 祝大家元宵节快乐 ... 表妹早上说: 今天你元宵了没? ... 我笑了!
     
    又开始了平静的生活, 不怎么想念过年像是跑龙套般的早出晚归的生活,好忙碌啊! 比上班还stress呢! 现在每天这样也挺好的,可是人啊总要给自己一点压力才能进步不是? 不然怎么进步啊? 不进则退...所以我准备开始更忙碌的生活了... 准备读书了, 去年错过了intake就只能等今年了, 一定要考上啊!!! 趁着我还有点激情,积极性,还有点年轻...还没有老到痴呆还是开始拼搏吧... 嘿嘿其实是自己有私心的哈!
     
    还想要开始运动,不然就只有一身的懒肉, 最近惰性十足的样子让自己很厌倦! 镜子里的自己不再那么"委婉"了(谢谢毕老师的教导). 这个星期开始要锻炼锻炼再锻炼了! 请督促我吧哈... 如果违约就见一次打一次,够狠吧? 哈哈... 我又饿了怎么办啊!
     
    最近没有什么特别让人高兴或者兴奋的事情哈,真的没有! 只知道自己又要开始ridiculous的忙了, 我的神啊! 没有选择只能接受,这就是我的人生态度! 等待下一个holiday哈.. 出去玩出去玩... 呆不住了! 北京一切都好,毛主席也好哈虽然很久没有请安了! 相信他老人家也挺头疼的看到我. 朋友说的对, 北京很难看到blue sky的...没有蓝天白云只有天天foggy的灰暗可是我倒不觉得是人生一大憾事呀, 天要什么颜色跟我有啥关系呢? 哎呀.. 记得Wade住北京的时候总是跟我complain这个... 现在想想: 无聊!!! Wade, hope you enjoy your blue sky and endless heat in your country! Dun cheat me, I know you must miss China heaps! Never come back please until you know how to appreciate this place more! Idiot you!
     
    大家都新年新气象吧... keep in touch, okay? You are never forgotten! Take care, my dear friends! Life is as such, no hatred that we cant let go; no love that we cant give ... so LOVE just like you can never love again ... laugh like you have no tomorrow and dance like no one is watching!!! Wish you all the best ... always smile please, nothing is perfect but YOUR sweet smile and love!
     
    Loves/xoxo
     
    Rachel